feelings right now. I'm ready to go, but I'm scared too. I have not slept too well the last couple days because I know the treatment will take its toll on me physically and emotionally and there are some pretty serious risks. I try not to focus my thoughts on the treatment itself. Mentally I am looking through the transplant. I am focusing my thoughts on the fun times I will have with my family and friends after the transplant. The support and prayers of many people have really helped me.One of the blessings of my cancer is that I have felt so much kindness and love from so many people. I am so thankful for all the wonderful people in my life. Family and friends truly are what life is all about. It's too bad we often have to endure difficult trials to realize it. Despite the natural fears, I feel good about the transplant. I know the Lord will carry me through. I am planning on riding my bike to the hospital. It's about 45 miles. I will have to get up pretty early because I have to be ready for radiation by 7 am. My friend Bob is going to ride along with me. I won't tell you how early we are leaving, you'll think I'm nuts. I am riding because I love it and I want to go in strong...ready to 'Blow the cancer away!'